1/5/26

The realization that nothing will ever be the same as it once was. 

I will never live in a home with my mother and brother again, the one I grew up in. I won’t wake up to my mom cleaning on Sunday mornings, and I won’t fight with my brother on a Tuesday over the television.

There won’t be the rush to leave class and drive over to go and see my friends. They’ll be in different states, and I’ll be in a different time zone as well. 

It makes me emotional to think about it because I know that I’ll always miss how times were. But then again, aren’t we as humans always reminiscing while creating new memories? Isn’t that a normal thing?

However, what brings me comfort is bonds that are meant truly last. They don’t break so easily.

I have to look at it from a different perspective and imagine the other possibilities I would have in my life. For instance, who else would be in my life, such as partners, pets, children, jobs, opportunities, love, or anything else you can think of? You have to turn it into a positive.

That’s what I’m doing because I still don’t know what the purpose of life is. Maybe one day the answer will appear to me suddenly and unknowingly, but as of right now, my goal has always been happiness, kindness, and living my life to be a good person. 

I don’t know if I’ll ever do anything life-changing for someone, something great, or write something so eye-opening and spectacular that people will talk about it for years. I don’t know what I’m gonna do. I have no idea, and I truly don’t know until I get there. What I do know is I just wanna do something good for the world.